A Prayer To My Daddy

dear god, i send this prayer to you as quickly as i can this prayer is for my daddy, lord he's up there with you right now and i know he's looking down upon me i really wish i could see him at least once but i know that's not going to happen i just want to let him know that i love him even though i never met him i know he loves me, because i feel it in my heart just tell him that i appreciate him watching over me and i'm grateful that i have a father for a guardian angel tell him to wait for me by those sparkling gates when i see him i can run to him so i can give him a hug and a kiss for the first time ever also tell him that i know he'll be there with me on my graduation day even though i can't see or touch him i will also know that he'll be by my side when i'm getting married but tell him not to get mad when my step-dad walks me down the aisle let him know that i will always be thinking of him everyday and every night send this to him also... i love you and i miss you daddy amen (9-9-02)

My Destiny

all alone in this world no one to turn to for they don't care they leave me standing here looking around for someone or something to help me find my way but there is nothing as my life is...nothing in the distance i see something or someone is moving my way i can't quite make what it is as it moves closer inch by inch a form comes into view but it's not what i expect to be i realize it just fog and it's nothing just my mind playing tricks on me once again getting my hopes up i know now that i'm doomed doomed to be alone for this is my destiny (3-12-05)

My Little One

you are apart of me as i'm apart of you i love you with all my heart and soul i'll always be there for you as you grow older day by day i'll care for you always and raise you right i'll always be proud of you no matter what you'll be with me always because you're in my heart i know i'm in yours for i'm your mother and you'll always be my little one (1-21-04)

Clay Figures

i linger for your touch
i melt when i think of you
wish you were here with me
so we can mold each other

i love the way you smile
when you look at me
i love when you touch my hair
every time you hold me

i long for your kiss
the softness of it
i shiver when you touch me
hoping we might be together

(10-20-02)

Lost Daughter's Plea

I am lost without you daddy
Don't you see
I need you here by my side
Holding me when I am crying

I am lost without you daddy
Don't you see
I need your touch
To ease all the pain

I am lost without you daddy
Don't you see
I am nothing
Just another misfortune child

I am lost without you daddy
Don't you see
I had no one to turn to
When my life went upside down

I am lost without out daddy
Don't you see
I am nothing without you
You were my everything
(11-21-02)

Misery of Love

you are a dagger, piercing at my heart
i wish you would just go away
yet, i need you
and want you
i want to feel your arms around me
to hold you, to feel my skin next to yours

i never felt this way before
i feel miserable
throwing you out, but i want you here

why can't i see
that you're everything that i needed
i know that i love you
but i guess i'm to ignorant to see

why did i let you go
i'd do anything for your love
but i just ignored it all
i've never experienced anything like this before

but i screwed it all up
i drowned in my own stupidity
now i'm all alone
there's nothing i can do

i wish i could take it all back
but it's to late for that
now all i can do is sit in my misery

i'm now bleeding, looking at my open wound
i feel my own hands tearing
tearing at my love that i lost

all i can do now is just wait
wait and see if the wound will close
i know in time it will
but for now i will suffer

(3-6-03)

Into My Eyes

Look into my eyes
What do you see
A lonely soul
Trying to get free

Look into my eyes
What do you see
Someone in desperate need
Wanting something more from life

Look into my eyes
What do you see
Someone tortured in agony
Trying to ease the pain

Look into my eyes
What do you see
A girl that got lost
Trying to find her way

Look into my eyes
What do you see
Someone not worth nothing
Just a girl that is a lonely soul

Look into my eyes
What do you see
Please tell me
So I can end all this confusion
(12-5-02)

Missing You

I'm lost without you
I miss you're smile and your voice
I wish I could hug and kiss you
One last time
I want you here with me
But I know you are
You're my guardian angel from above
You look after me
And guide me through tough times
I just want to know if you'll be there
Even if I can't see or hear you
I do know that you will
In my heart
(4-24-03)

Consumed Into Darkness

as i start cutting myself
i feel the rush
as i feel the rush it makes me want more
as i feel the pain
i start enjoy the suffering i brought to myself
i see all my problems fade away
as i see the blood drip
drip towards the floor
it starts to hypnotize me
as i continue
i see the marks that i left
the marks that will stay with me forever
they are a symbol of the problems
the problems that endure me
i cannot get away unless i cut myself
so i cut deeper and deeper
i see the blood pouring as i cut
the blood flows all over me
and it flows everywhere fast
i start to faint
faint into the darkness
in which i will be consumed
consumed for all eternity

(5-15-03)

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