Misery of Love

you are a dagger, piercing at my heart
i wish you would just go away
yet, i need you
and want you
i want to feel your arms around me
to hold you, to feel my skin next to yours

i never felt this way before
i feel miserable
throwing you out, but i want you here

why can't i see
that you're everything that i needed
i know that i love you
but i guess i'm to ignorant to see

why did i let you go
i'd do anything for your love
but i just ignored it all
i've never experienced anything like this before

but i screwed it all up
i drowned in my own stupidity
now i'm all alone
there's nothing i can do

i wish i could take it all back
but it's to late for that
now all i can do is sit in my misery

i'm now bleeding, looking at my open wound
i feel my own hands tearing
tearing at my love that i lost

all i can do now is just wait
wait and see if the wound will close
i know in time it will
but for now i will suffer

(3-6-03)