Misery of Love

you are a dagger, piercing at my heart
i wish you would just go away
yet, i need you
and want you
i want to feel your arms around me
to hold you, to feel my skin next to yours

i never felt this way before
i feel miserable
throwing you out, but i want you here

why can't i see
that you're everything that i needed
i know that i love you
but i guess i'm to ignorant to see

why did i let you go
i'd do anything for your love
but i just ignored it all
i've never experienced anything like this before

but i screwed it all up
i drowned in my own stupidity
now i'm all alone
there's nothing i can do

i wish i could take it all back
but it's to late for that
now all i can do is sit in my misery

i'm now bleeding, looking at my open wound
i feel my own hands tearing
tearing at my love that i lost

all i can do now is just wait
wait and see if the wound will close
i know in time it will
but for now i will suffer

(3-6-03)

Into My Eyes

Look into my eyes
What do you see
A lonely soul
Trying to get free

Look into my eyes
What do you see
Someone in desperate need
Wanting something more from life

Look into my eyes
What do you see
Someone tortured in agony
Trying to ease the pain

Look into my eyes
What do you see
A girl that got lost
Trying to find her way

Look into my eyes
What do you see
Someone not worth nothing
Just a girl that is a lonely soul

Look into my eyes
What do you see
Please tell me
So I can end all this confusion
(12-5-02)

Missing You

I'm lost without you
I miss you're smile and your voice
I wish I could hug and kiss you
One last time
I want you here with me
But I know you are
You're my guardian angel from above
You look after me
And guide me through tough times
I just want to know if you'll be there
Even if I can't see or hear you
I do know that you will
In my heart
(4-24-03)

Consumed Into Darkness

as i start cutting myself
i feel the rush
as i feel the rush it makes me want more
as i feel the pain
i start enjoy the suffering i brought to myself
i see all my problems fade away
as i see the blood drip
drip towards the floor
it starts to hypnotize me
as i continue
i see the marks that i left
the marks that will stay with me forever
they are a symbol of the problems
the problems that endure me
i cannot get away unless i cut myself
so i cut deeper and deeper
i see the blood pouring as i cut
the blood flows all over me
and it flows everywhere fast
i start to faint
faint into the darkness
in which i will be consumed
consumed for all eternity

(5-15-03)

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